I convinced Elliot to do some drawings with me and these are the beautiful results. I am mostly the light green. It's really fun to see what shapes become in other people's imaginations. I wish people were less bashful about making art together, because it's so much fun! I'm hoping we will get to make collages together soon as well.
Everything feels so full of darkness and Christmas lights and warm food and supermarket shopping trips! I took some long exposure pictures of Christmas lights impulsively and then I couldn't stop myself waving all the available lights around for the camera. Lights are so pretty in the dark!
Elliot and I went to the shops and marvelled at all the novelty jumpers available. I always like to take a quick snap of us in the booze aisle CCTV whenever possible.
I think this sums him up more than any other picture that has ever existed.
Elliot made fried eggs in a very dark kitchen and lots of lights were reflected in the glass doors. Such a beautiful dim yellow glow.
Light painting in the mirror is really fun, but I can't keep the camera very steady. This feels so Christmassy and nice though!
Woolly tights are forever~♡
This week has been full of Christmas excitement as my mum has been on a bit of a Christmas decoration shopping spree and the tree is now fully up and shining. I've also developed a Christmas cold, so I've been coughing and spluttering a lot, and Rescue A Family had to cancel our show because me singing is not really possible right now. I'm hoping my cold will have gone away by Christmas day, but we'll see. Elliot and I have also been getting back into watching Buffy The Vampire Slayer, which somehow also feels Christmassy. Maybe everything feels Christmassy at Christmas.
Just reminding myself of the cool and vibrant and happy and varying person I am via webcam. Because sometimes it's hard to remember that every mood/feeling/look/situation is valid and real and part of one big, weird, changing thing. I think the fact that we only really see ourselves when we are purposefully looking in mirrors and things is the reason I like to use mirrors and webcams so much, to remember all the different ways I can move my face. I can only find answers/ideas/feelings inside myself so I guess looking at myself physically is connected to how I mentally sort things, and can jump start a process in my mind. Sometimes when my brain gets stuck somewhere, I look at my face or my whole physical self and the constant movement and expression of it gets me unstuck. I'm so mentally comforted by observing and moving my physical self. I'm also mentally comforted by raspberries, but that's simpler.
Please enjoy these pictures, ft. my Halloween costume (Minnie The Minx), and me sizing up my interview attire.
I've been thinking about how I format things on this blog and what I enjoy most and what's the best stuff, etc. Almost everything regular has a bit of a diary element to it. My scans, Animal Crossing journals, Fitting Room Focus updates, and of course my actual diary entries. These are all quite fixed in format, and I like that. I like doing spontaneous posts that aren't part of any ongoing series as well, and I like making general art posts.
From all these clear, devised posts, I end up with leftovers. Pictures that were almost right, but not quite. Variations and outtakes, or just pictures I took or drew just for the fun of it in the middle of working. The thing is though, these things are almost a more genuine part of me than anything else (arguably), so I'd really like to show more of them. I also like the idea of jumbling more things together. Pictures and drawings and screenshots all together like a cool gang. I'd like to focus more on time and thoughts instead of necessarily one event or subject. Maybe more streams of consciousness but with pictures.
This blog is a home for me, so I gotta figure out the best way to live in it, right?
So that's a little explanation of what I'm thinking about here, and these pictures are all from my phone. I use my phone in a really pure, unthinking way most of the time, partially because it's always available, and partially because I just want to look at and remember stuff through it. At the bottom of this post also are a few sketches I made trying to draw myself in a slightly different form than usual. They're scribbly and fun, and I think they're the drawn equivalent of my phone pictures.
This jacket is really oversized and comfortable and I wear it when I want something to act as coat without being mega bulky or hard to remove. It's also really soft. I think I took this picture because I looked less dishevelled than I felt and I was comforted by that. A lot of the time I feel worn out but discover I look like I've eaten 100 raspberries. Not that I look particularly fresh in this picture!
I saw this baby jumper in Tesco and I got really jealous of babies who get to wear this. There are so many cute baby clothes that I would love to be able to wear. Damn you, fashionable babies!
A nice close up of my painting. I love these brush strokes and colours.
For some reason I really like taking photos at train stations. It feels quite commemorative somehow. I also like to manipulate Elliot's face with my hands like he is a wiggly jelly toy.
I slept with plaits in my hair and I turned into a wavy bush.
Changing the form of my hair like that makes me appreciate all its forms so much. Plaits and buns and soft waves and curls and the way light falls on everything make me feel really beautiful and happy!
I don't usually draw myself with ears, but I saw a cute Twitter icon someone had of a little drawing and I liked the ears a lot so I thought I'd try it out. I really like the ears on these drawings, and the hair shape and little eyelashes.
This last drawing is the face I make when I'm looking at donuts.
I am never surprised but always thrilled at the mountain of comfy jumpers available in River Island. This one has such a cool weave of black and white, and I love the thick black cuffs on it too. A good jumper.
Here's me in my standard winter casual dress. Leggings are the ultimate in comfort and they're surprisingly warm.
|dress - £24, skirt - £30|
|jumper - £35|
Here's a bonus video showing how I usually behave in fitting rooms (especially in River Island because their playlists are just too good):
These are sections of detail from the "I Exist" scans I made this week. The level of detail is so cool and I love looking at tiny parts of scans and enjoying them. Every little part of me is kind of amazing and strange and beautiful.